I wish you knew

I wish you knew how much you meant to me and how much losing you affected me. How much it kills me everytime I realize we won't ever be the same. How much it hurts seeing you and having so much to say, yet not being able to do so as the awkward silence lays between us. I wish you understood how much you hurt me. But i'm thankful because now I know I can weather every storm that comes my way. Because of you, I'm that much stronger and happier. Thank you for the life lessons.